education in zen

see things are not as they seem! a bird flying is actually not flying, but the earth falling away from her. a tear you cry , is not a tear but a sharp knife with which you cut others. a doubt you have is not a doubt, it´s a madness you set on earth, I am fighting with these stuff since three weeks and has done no progress. zen is staying in the wind, without there a wind, but you are taking it like cut down the tree so it´s safe from wind! that´s th eeuropean method, I have get used to that, and don´t know how to change. you can not satisfy yourself through a winter with just one corn seed. what does zen people mean by see the bridge is flowing and and not the water. is it not clear that when you hold your hand into what, you cause disturbance, you have to be the boat floating on the water, lay a leave on the water , that the wisdom, not holding you hand in the water! what does I except, water is wet! see the straight line is not always the best , it can lead you straight to hell! you worry about the dust, but don´t see the sandstorm! that´s not really zen... harry