hello

have for a week vacation, so I can blog, I am not very much anymore in blogging. hanging on my mad thoughts, what is actually real what is not real, what an easy question so hard to answer. I have often the days moments where I just feel tired and worn out, I really do not anymore how to live, just forget a normal life. life is so weird and I have no excuse for all the things people are doind. Life has become weird for me, therre is noo question about that.
c. I think we are very close to each other, but I don´t know how close, and there are moments where I doubt it so much, people are always telling sth. else then me. what making me really mad is that we never can meet, that I will never see your pretty face. these are the hardest moments in my life. people tink they ae so superior to me, I should teach them sth. else, but you know that we you start listening to the people everything goes wrong. c. I miss you so much, and also people call me mad, I will not stop believing in you. I just wonder why everyone around me has success but I not, sth. is going wrong in this world.