love

I will love her forever, also we cannot come together. I don´t think I want to meet any girl in the next two years. or maybe never again.

gone

I was in love and no one allowed me to ask her for a date, now I have to think about this conclusion , i have to respond to that, what can I do, I just want to be alone, to be true I don´t know what to do. everything has become empty to me. just when i thought my life is getting better, i lost everything and new hate on this society developed inside of me, ...

love

I am so desperately in love it´s´not fun. Like I was nevebefore, and that does hurt much. who cares about this world when the heart is full of grief, es kommen tage , es gehen tage es ist mir alles egal.

desperateness

can someone tell me the way? I am sick of the west. I don´t know, sick of all this terrorism talk, I more and more believe all these campains so justified they are are spams of a undergoing society, inable to deal with it´s problem. every fourth person in poor conditions, jsut needs some more technical advances and terrorism will be our daily bread... but to be true, I don´t like the west anymore, for them all man with black hair is a terrorist. for sure 11/9 brought US back to a kind of unity, but the made every muslim people to have to be at least tired of western policy. I don´t know that the way I think, and besides I don´t think US has really won the war on terror... yeah they have brought chaos into Iraq and say they are proud of that, wow, great job, I am impressed. better stop here, harry

world?

This world is going down, all these wars, all these cultural bad behavior, but to be true I feel not the slightest pity, the arrogant west and the fundamentalistic east, both in war with each other, mad people ruling these world and even more mad persons calling this democracy... I am done for this world, I was in love and now I just wanna dy, because of this love, so am I, thanks harry.

today

Today is a sad day, I feel so much different then this society. I just cannot believe. every day seems to me like a day that you are loosing the game of life. There is no tenderness in this life no hope, the joy that I have is like a bad dream, you want to forget. the pains I have like a maydream that have come true. I just don´t know where to start to complain, it´s just too much. you are just anymore aware that you should not be a in pain. I cannot think of a single day without fears. I just sit at the bus and the people just give me nothing, they are so uninteresting, so boring. you can see the dollar signs in their eyes. and that just is disgusting. you just want to breathe, your soul wants to escape, it´s so hard.
suzie is again sick. that´s really a pity. I wish her one day she gets better. suzie , wish you the best. so much for now, harry

harry

I have lost all connections to the world, living a life in the universum of absurdism, if this word should exist. read today some old persian poets, was so empty! yeah girls, what to say, without them my world would be even emptier! Also I have not find someone to stay with me ;) lol. ok hope soon to post more! harry

happy days

I had the last four days free, and there were some kind of happy days. Near madness and desperateness, these days seem like a flower in the desert. Was today at work, was ok, but missed the freedom of lazy days. saw again princess, that how I call the girl at internship I am interested in, then had after work a talk with my new carer, a young lady, not very fun at all. so much from em, wish everyone happiness and come back! harry

new start

tomorrow a new week, saw new pics of brittany daniel, she is still looking great! wish I could meet her, talk to her and so . time and age just run away, it´s a horror! c. what are you doing right now? seems everything has gone the wrong direction, living just an inconsequenty... wish you the best things on this earth, happiness, good luck, sanity and so on, bye dear, harry

new start

tomorrow a new week, saw new pics of brittany daniel, she is still looking great! wish I could meet her, talk to her and so . time and age just run away, it´s a horror! c. what are y

new start

always so disappointed when I compare the NBA of 1990 with the NBA of 2006, damn these NBA has lost everything, and I mean everything worth watching it. These are some well trained whatever who try to play basketball, respect for argentia the nower wm champ, having only two players in the nba...

new start

I think I am going often to think of princess, but to you c., what is going on, what can you give me, can you do it good, what can I do, what I can give you?? where can I find peace, where will i find my rest?? I am not really a person for doing great job, but I miss princess a lot, I could watch for hours in her eyes, a pity she always turn them away.she is now two weeks on vacation. that´s a pity too, what is going on with you c.? are you happy, have you found what you are searching for? you are for sure good looking, but is there sth. behind it? you will say I am calling for perfercness, yes because I like you. commenters on this blog have become few, but thanks to suzie, I still update this blog.
on friday I had a little bit fun at work! really unbelievable! I am getting in my mind more and more independent! nothing to do with work! still I have to work out, should start tomorrow! thanks harry

new start

hy c. my other love is dying! it just lies in its end! so maybe I will now find time to think of you! I miss you so much, I want to see you, be with you and so , but we never had a chance to meet. I even don´t know if you know about me. I made in the last years really bad experiences, but it´s good to know that there is still happiness in the heart of someone! I just hope you are ok. just hoping I can make way. I am sick of this always wanting and demanding and missing, darling, I wish you everything nice, your harry